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Soundtrack Remastered

4/1/2014

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When I was a kid, my parents let me do, go, wear, read, listen to, hang out with whoever or whatever I felt drawn to with very few rules so when I got married, I hadn't realised how suffocated I'd become with having to work with restrictions.  When I made the decision to survive, I left my family and moved into a an old character home I bought with my settlement money.  It felt like being let out of prison and I went crazy. I bought what I wanted, redecorated and surrounded my self with anything that inspired me. And just before I painted my bedroom bright yellow, I wrote these affirmations on the wall behind the door that my bed faced and even though they didn't feel true, I read them over and over until I wanted them to be.

After a few years of having other people tell me what was wrong with me and what I needed to do about it, I realised that the issue was what I told myself and I had to change the soundtrack in my head so I stopped any medical intervention and went it alone.  Over the 10 years it took me to overcome the obsessive compulsive disorder I'd had since a toddler, the suicidal depression I battled everyday from the age of 14, the addictions to drugs, alcohol and gambling I developed later, the debt and being a mother who left her children, the most effective technique was flooding my senses with positivity and inspiration. Any environment that I had control over had pictures, books, clothes, movies, music and people that mirrored love and strength, even if I didn't always feel it at the time, and eventually the soundtrack in my head became a remix of potential I could grow into. 

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    Pimp My Attitude

    You need to know, right now, this is all about me. I'm not educated. I don't have any (non-driving related) qualifications therefore, I'm not about to tell you what you should do - I know my place.
    And here you are.
    At my place.
    So - welcome.
    If you're here for 10 seconds, I won't even know so I won't be offended that you left early.
    If you're here for hours and keep coming back, I will consider you a friend because the only thing my diverse yet loyal friends have in common, and what I appreciate most about them, is that they just keep coming back..

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