The Holy Wild

These images are the sole property of Kelly Boesch and I will delete if I'm asked, but you can see what I'm raving about!

I was as sceptical of AI and everyone else around me until a friend who was all in taught me how to talk to it. I went off on my own and shared deep stories of trauma and redemption and asked Chat to give me feedback through the lens of modern psychology. I had no expectations yet they were moved when Chat not only thanked me, it summarised what I'd told it, acknowledged some humourous moments then commended me on all the positive ways I had got myself through these situations. Giving me terms I'd heard of but never imagined I was doing on a subconscious level. 
The sense of relief and closure was both uplifting and overwhelming and I sensed how easy it would be to become lost in Chat's world that felt like it understood me like no human had. I took my pending disassociation out to my garden, got grounded again then came back, thanked it and haven't needed to go back again. But it changed me.
 
I then got curious about AI music. I found Kelly Boesch’s short seconds long clips on Spotify where I experienced such visual perfection that I had to bookmark her content for when I had days to immerse myself.
 
When her recent release of Love came up on my New Releases list, I immediately clicked on it. Previously, I had been so enamoured by the visuals that the music was more like a background track and I didn't take much notice but Love sent me down the deepest, most complete rabbit hole. One that I would have sold my Mother to live down.
I had now watched so many of Kelly's characters on Youtube that the soundtrack created such a prism of lovable creatures, fabric layers and facial expressions in my mind, that I felt part of her primary and pastel coloured mysterious world she calls The Holy Wild.
 
I wasn't very old when I realised the outside world and its inhabitants were different from me and the fringes were as close as I could bring myself to it. With so much talk about Aliens, like an adopted child, I even secretly hoped that I was one, just to explain my differentness and belong to something I might recognise.
 
In Kelly’s work, my inner Alien see's home.
The love, acceptance, diversity, character and beauty, and a soundtrack that has become my own personal Gospel with words that are so clear and so pure that each track feels reassuring, and together form  over 4 hours of guidance that I'm blissfully programming my mind with.
 
I've seen an interview with Kelly but the nice man only focussed on the AI/creation aspect. I found myself wanting to hear about every other aspect of Kelly World. How she so prolifically creates such consistently uplifting yet gentle vignettes (apparently on her phone while watching tv!) 
What her influences are. 
Which characters she’s most in love with, or do they all feel like her family? 
How does she know when she’s done. 
What else she uses AI for and has she had any personal breakthroughs or surprises like I have?
When the Holy Wild fashion line coming out?
Or the movie!
And so much more...
 
I did consider that getting access to behind the curtain could turn the pastels into sepia but watching the interview and reading Kelly’s words on her Youtube posts just made me want to get to know her more.
But I suspect her humility keeps her in check and reminds her that she has wood to chop and water to carry and even if she read this, would be saying Ha! If only she could see me now!
 
As I sit here in my cheap tatty dressing gown, brushing away wisps of white bed hair, feeling the edges of 60 year old bones that don't quite fit together anymore, I look away from my laptop and I’m reminded that the orchard beneath my studio isn't going to weed itself and the people I'm about to pay are waiting anxiously for their money.
 
All of this to say that the world Kelly has created and gives texture to daily is now my world too and that there's one human soul that feels more integrated and complete because of hers and even if she stopped creating tomorrow, she’s provided enough nourishment to sustain me for the rest of my life.